Monday 12 September 2016

miracles...


a bracelet...

I have a pandora bracelet that I wear....the bracelet my sister bought me but the 3 charms (3 for good luck? not in my case) the 3 charms i have on it are all my firsts with him, my first christmas with him, my first anniversary and my first pregnancy (which ended in a miscarriage unfortunately). I treasure this with all my heart, I have made excuses to dates as to what the charms mean as I feel they will judge me for it, but I know I will never discard it, I will never not acknowledge it. It means so much to me and shows my journey with him. He is with someone now and happy and moved on, and I sit here looking at my charms and all I can think about is how much I miss him. I know I will never stop loving him, I hold him in my heart but I know I can still love him and not be with him. I know now that loving him is just a part of me, it does not mean that I will not be able to share my heart with anyone else. He just holds a part, the rest is for the taking.