update...

I have not posted in a while as I have been busy, however I also feel it is because I do not quite know how I feel anymore. I am glad my period of sadness has gone, I am glad I did not send that letter to him, however this does not mean that I will never send it as I feel it will be have to be one day in order for me to fully move on. Whilst my thoughts are okay with it all though I will save myself the stress of sending him it. He still plagues my every thought but I have learnt how to accept these thoughts now, that he will always be a big part of my life and I should feel happy that I still think of him because he obviously meant that much to me. One day I do hope that I will be able to move on completely but for now I am satisfied just being a girl with thoughts of the past. I do still wonder if he thinks of me and if he ever wants to contact me and arrange a meeting like I do, but then again if he did I suppose he would have done it already. I guess we will just have to wait and see where this road takes me....