48 hours...

So I am beginning to gather myself together again after a vile week. Even though he has not left my thoughts I have managed to restrain all emotional thoughts about writing him a letter and confessing my remaining love for him. I wrote the letter, I must have done it at least 5 times, and I must say it is quite a good read, I read online that if you want to do something like that, write it and wait 48 hours, if in that time you don't make any changes and still want to send it then go ahead, but if you change something then the 48 hours starts again. As hard as it was I managed to stick by this and I in the end it has meant me not sending him it, I don't think it would have done much but hurt me more as I feel I could write his reply myself. It probably would push him further away from me and I would not want that. When the day comes and should I wish to gain some major closure, then I will send it. But for now I am working on me, on getting my happiness back on tract and finding the way to accepting not everyone can stay no matter how hard we try.