looking back...

Words from days gone by, I read these now and it almost scares me as I can start to feel myself getting lost in that feeling of having lost a part of me, of having my heart broken. I haven't felt like this in a while now and I am proud of the fact I have made such a step towards moving on. The dreams don't happen like they did, I am not waking up wanting to fall back into that sweet sleep where everything can go back to normal; being awake just didn't cut it anymore. I felt I had to include these anyway as they were relevant to how I was feeling at one day in my journey through this break up, and since this blog is here to remind myself of how far I have come and how one boy broke my heart one day, I thought it would be relevant to include everything and anything. 

did it even happen...

I feel like what happened between me and him barely happened now. When before it was all I could think about, now it is something I have to think about if I want to. I know that sounds harsh, like how could I have loved him so much if I am saying this, but I guess it is all a part of moving on. My mind has built a wall around that chapter of my life and started to build other exciting things around it. I have a new start ahead of me and I am focusing more on doing things for me. I know that if I saw him I would probably end up writing a post saying how everything all came flooding back, I;m sure it would be the case for many people, the whole out of sight out of mind after a while. But for now I am much happier and finally dealing with my loss.

its all for you...

comfort in words...

if my heart had a voice...

realisation...

its just a scar...

So I haven't wrote in ages and to just quickly update I feel I am doing much better. I feel like I am finally, truly moving on. It's weird as I feel like the whole relationship didn't happen, but then I will see something or read something and my heart will give a quick beat to let me know that he is still there and the feelings are still there, however my mind has now found a way to store that away, and find a way around it so that I no longer get the pain and sadness again. This is only a short post I just wanted to mainly put on images, in no order, but of wise words that I spend each night finding and I honestly do find comfort in them. They all show how I felt at one point in the whole year it has been and so I find them relevant. So here it goes...