just because...

I think this describes a lot of how I feel towards texting him or getting in contact. I want to be there but at the same time is it appropriate? If I didn't text him to ask to see his son he wouldn't offer for me to come around and spend some time, therefore I have come to see me being there for him as a bit of a nuisance. Something he has to put up with just to keep the peace, but that is what makes me feel so uncomfortable sometimes, that I am forcing myself back into their lives. At the same time I need him to know that I will be there for him if he ever wanted to talk or need something, no matter what. Its a constant battle between doing what is right for the situation and doing what is right for my heart.